Monday, October 04, 2010
it's been 41 days of me working in the company.so far,not a big fan of it.and there is just so much to talk about work.fucking sian.
guess what, went to the jurong east sports complex..yeah, after so many years. it's still the same hee..rmb the last time was there with ci..maybe heng and Brandon.and others that i cant recall it..always experience same thing with different people. swimming, nah, very high chance of me dying.yeah, the same old me cant float, me cant trap water, etc...but everytime i see people swim, i can always imagine myself doing that.haiz. just hope it'll not remain as a fantasy.sunblock didnt really do much, as a result, i'm this tan fat bitch in swimming wear.have seen fatter ones today, but still why compare to the ones worst of?trying to learn freestyle, but didnt get much practice when the pool is filled with people.it's a PEE day, cuz i've sat on a puddle of pee,dont ask..choke and force to drink SALTY(urine) pool water.OMG. the thought of it loses all my appetite.probably a good way to keep myself on the diet.
screw diet, i've giving up loads of stuff...and i dont see the result.it makes me wonder why do i have to suffer this way.when skinny bitches can eat/shit/sleep normally.
jogging becomes part of me now.it's still at elementary level.used to jog for 1 round=1.56km around the hood.and 5km now.hoho, pat on my shoulder.maybe someday, i do STRONGLY believe that i'll complete a marathon. for 8 seasons of biggest loser fan, i never fail to amaze that how can these fat arses finish a marathon?the answer is their determination to shed that fat,hope for a better change in their life and tons of training.i'm currently 1.5 out of the 3 criteria. passable, but not great. and someday, when i get all 3, i'll be able to love myself more.
saw this video on facebook, about raising funds for this charity for people in AFRICA.i'm so deeply touched. there is really no nationality when it comes to charity.its not wrong to offer a better quality of living to the less fortunate. and i always wanted to do charity work. i dont mind going africa some day and offer my help. but whoever that is doing that/done before are generally wealthy. so screw life once more. mayb what i can do now is to offer my donations.yeah, and i strongly encourage people to NOT give me anything on any occasion, but we can dontate that money!makes more sense to me.not a big fan of presents.
idk why,but i'm actually talking to this person.people like to remember the positive memories.and i'm sure that is exactly what the person did, all good,no bad. mayb i'm up for some revenge. all the pain that you put me through, it'll be all given back to you. for all i know, nothing felt as good as sweet revenge.yeah?
idk if i'm such a hater, but i cant recall the reason why i decide not to friend( omg, childish!) a friend. we used to be so close.and now....we are nothing more than a stranger.will i say hi if i see you again,stranger?
hmmm,wonder if i've issues with friendship,or maintaining friendship..kinda lose quite alot of friend over the years.but isn't it true that friends come and go only the true ones remain?
i talk too much crap?hmmm, who knows.
P.S forever is never enough, eternity is.
